Hello! Amanda here.
I have decided to write a post! About time, my last one was in...October? Heh heh heh. I can never make myself do anything. This whole month has been me laying about my house doing nothing. Oh and I went to Disney World. I know right, ME? Going to a DISNEY PARK? Crazy.
On Sunday, January 2nd, I thought about how exactly a year ago that day I was sitting on my porch at night, sobbing. I had two very good reasons for this. One was that I was absolutely miserable with my life and the thought of going back to school made me sick. The other reason was that my favorite fictional character had just DIED. Stupid Wilfred. Well this year was not like that at all. Not only was I not dreading going back to school, but I was actually lamenting the fact that I had a whole other week of vacation. Also my happiness is no longer tied in with a British television show.
This year has been crazy so far. I've done things that I never saw myself doing. I actually went to a haunted house and lived. I've actually hung out with people, which is a nice change to sitting at home wishing I was hanging out with people. I've become closer to someone than I ever have with anyone. It was scary, still is, but so far it's been worth it. I've talked to friends about things I've needed help working through, and they helped me. I fell hard for someone. I fell hard trying to do a pirouette. More than once. I wear a leotard. Shudder. I tried belting and my vocal chords are still intact. And I'm going to be in a musical this Spring. I'm double cast in a BEAUTIFUL solo and I'm in two amazing quartets. It's going to be the best musical EVER! Well, at least the best show I've ever been in.
It's been scary. Especially the whole "talking to people and being social" bit. Living vicariously through tv shows is a lot easier. But I don't have to do that anymore. I have my own life. True, Rose Tyler is still my desktop background...c'mon, I can't just magically stop being nerdy. :)